I need to apologize to my son

Song (not her real name) is serving a suspended death sentence for trafficking drugs.

The parenting classes I have attended in the past five years gave me food for thought about my role as a mother, and my relationship with my own mother.

I was 28 when I started my jail term, and my son was 4 years old. I didn't think about too much about the duties of a mother before. I indulged myself in a life of pleasure and comfort. I spent most of my time playing with my son. I didn't think to plan for the future.