The Australian women interviewed felt betrayed and inadequate. And always they were under pressure not to appear controlling, uptight or unreasonable. Men's consumption of pornography is natural, many believed, and to judge it as anything but positive is to risk being labelled a prude, or worse, a nag.

Within a few weeks of falling in love, 29-year-old Gracie was virtually living with her boyfriend in his Bondi flat and sharing his computer. These days sharing a computer with a lover can be more toxic than sharing a toothbrush. And so it turned out for Gracie. Like all the women interviewed for this article, Gracie, a human resources manager, insists she is no prude. She is a willing sexual explorer. But even she was surprised at what her 33-year-old boyfriend, a builder, stored under his "favourites" file. "There must have been 20 porn sites there. I was pretty shocked - not that they were there, only that there were so many," she says.

"Whenever I put anything into the search field, there would generally be a site related to porn come up. So if I typed in a word starting with 'l', I would get a listing of 'Lolitas', 'lesbians on lesbians' ¡­ You get the picture."

His internet history file unleashed a tsunami of pornography. But what is a girl to do when she is madly in love, is not averse to a bit of pornography and considers herself to be "cool"?

She tiptoes around the subject for weeks. She raises the issue gingerly: "I'm totally fine, just wondering why there's so much."

She thought she loved him and she did not want to ruin the relationship by being censorious. But her boyfriend's pornography consumption begun to affect their sex life, and then their broader relationship.

The sex became impersonal and aggressive: "It became more 'porn' style - pulling my hair, no kissing, slapping around a bit, all stuff I was initially OK with. And always he wanted to come in my face," Gracie says. "There was no real intimacy, no thought about what I might like. That's when I began to realise¡­"

Slowly the sex tapered off: "I would wake up and find him looking at it, I would go to bed at night and he would look at porn," Gracie says. "We would argue; he would look at porn. I would take the dog for a walk, and he would look at it. I would brush my teeth; he would use it."

She blamed herself. He blamed her. She questioned, she cried, and finally, after a violent argument, she left.

A team of American researchers from Stanford and Duquesne Universities has called cyber-sex compulsion a "hidden public health hazard". Sexual counsellors and psychologists in Australia are less colourful. Brett McCann, a senior lecturer in the sexual health program at the University of Sydney, says it is a growing problem "with big implications for the public health dollar. There's no quick fix, and by the time the problem is uncovered, there's usually a crisis in the relationship."

Greta Goldberg, a clinical psychologist of more than 30 years experience, has counselled adolescents aged 13 and 16 for internet pornography compulsions, as well as adults. "It's more pervasive. It's catching more people, and it's likely to be a huge problem in future," she says.

Relationships Australia, the country's biggest counselling network, reports an increased number of clients raising the issue. Pamela Lewis, the director of client services, says: "More women are saying, 'We used to be close, now he spends his time on porn sites.' It's another one of those things wrecking relationships."

Dr Amelia Haines, a therapist at the Sydney Centre for Sexual and Relationship Therapy, reports seeing a lot of people for whom internet pornography is "out of hand". "Men want to see what else is out there. Some end up spending three hours a night looking for the right image, the right trigger. They search and search. Usually what they look at is not too scary. They worry more about wasting so much of their lives, they're embarrassed about how much they're accessing, and they can't stop."

Compared with alcohol problems, and violence-control issues in relationships, obsessive pornography use is still a second-order marriage-wrecker. It is usually part of a constellation of problems. Ironically, the lack of high-speed broadband in Australia has kept internet porn's full potential on a leash. That downloading of porn clips is slow has helped maintain the popularity of old-fashioned video and DVD pornography.

Even so, figures provided by Nielsen/NetRatings NetView show 2.7 million Australians visited an "adult" website in March (this figure counts repeat visitors to adult websites only once); 4.3 million visited in the first three months of this year. More than 35 per cent of all internet users in the quarter ending March visited an adult website at least once.

For couples in trouble over internet porn, it is a secret misery. Women say over and over the problem needed to be brought out in the open. "I'm glad you're writing about this," they say.

Rebecca, a 25-year-old medical student, strives for a clinical detachment from her fiance's obsession with pornography. She thinks of his problem as an addiction, like other substance abuses, characterised by compulsive use, secrecy, and shame. "It should be treated like any other addiction," she says. "And abstinence is the best course."

She says his problem is tied to low self-esteem, even though to the world he appears a "charismatic, outgoing person". With porn, he did not have to worry what others thought of his performance. But during the three years of "struggle" over his obsession, she has not always been so objective. "I was always the one pushing for sex," she says. "If anything I'm more of a sexual deviant in bed."

Originally he confined his daily porn gazing to when she was not in the house. A quick flick through his internet history revealed an escalating habit. It reached a point where "porn became easier than actually having sex", she says. She felt about as sexy as a "can of kidney beans. I felt unwanted. I found myself going to the internet and asking, 'What is it those women have I don't?' I felt worse about myself. I told him, 'I'll give you whatever you want. What can I do to make it more like porn?"'

Ordinary women's desire or desperation to "make it more like porn" has helped fire the popularity of Brazilian waxes, according to Nancy Etcoff, a Harvard medical school psychologist and the author of Survival of the Prettiest: the Science of Beauty. Unlike the natural-looking porn stars of the 1970s such as Linda Lovelace of Deep Throat fame, the nymphs populating internet porn today have their pubic hairs ripped out after an application of hot wax. The desired look is "clean" and pre-pubescent. "Women today are emulating porn stars who have no pubic hair," says Etcoff, "and I think men like it."

Many women like the look, too, but a disgruntled sufferer of a Brazilian wax says on the Herald website: "Because girls are always so keen to be every man's fantasy, we did it, and now it is considered the norm to go through the extremely painful and costly experience of having all our pubic hairs ripped out every three weeks. My older sister never had to go through all of this."

Women are also under pressure to emulate the porn stars' apparent penchant for anal sex, according to four consecutive Swedish studies, the latest published in 2005 in the International Journal of STD and AIDS. Young men who are regular porn consumers are more likely to have had anal sex with a girl, and most of the men liked it. Most young women did not like anal sex, with fewer than half saying they would do it again, the studies found.

Redelman says: "Young women report a lot of their partners want anal sex. They've seen it on videos or the internet and they want to explore, but most young women aren't that comfortable with it."

Nadine, a 30-year-old accountant, who observed her boyfriend, a 33-year-old lawyer, graduate to harder and harder porn sites over years, says: "He loves anal and I hate it. He knows that I do but he still insists on it. I dread it and honestly, I close my eyes and pray that he hurries up and gets it over with it."

The secret use of pornography is the true home-wrecker, according to most of the psychologists contacted. The most common pattern is for one partner to eventually discover the other's obsessive use. "When it's consensual use in a limited way, it's unproblematic," says Eric Hudson, the national president of the Australian Association of Relationship Counsellors. "But where it is secretive, it is experienced as a betrayal of the relationship."

And secret use, he says, like an affair, can be a symptom of other problems.

Alex, a 38-year-old computer programmer who worked at home, describes himself as an "ex porn junkie". He admits the deception over his porn use was the last straw in a faltering 12-year relationship. It was not uncommon for him to browse for three or four hours at a time most days when he had work and "better things to do".

He did not understand his compulsion when he was in its grip. Now he realises it was his escape from unhappiness and insecurity. "I could retreat to the security of my fantasy world," he says. "I thought it was relatively harmless. I'd started as a teenager with magazines, but with the internet there was so much more content. It was always available."

After he was sprung, he was devastated when his marriage broke up. He felt like a worthless person. "My wife was a very honest, upfront sort of person," he says. "It was the fact I had been deceiving her for so long that made her so angry and upset."

Now that he is not so controlled by pornography, he worries about young people learning about sex from the internet. "It's a big wide world out there, people are doing strange things, a lot of it not particularly kind to women," Alex says. "I was fascinated, I wanted to have a look, but with teens growing up this will be their experience."

Whether people can become "addicted" to pornography, as they can to heroin or tobacco, is debatable. Most experts steer clear of pathologising behaviour just because it is not mainstream.

Hudson says people in the grip of internet pornography, who feel they need progressively bigger hits, experience it as an addiction. But they are not physically addicted. People have some control over their sexual behaviour, he says. McCann says people should seek help early if they believe they are developing a habit that could damage their relationship.

Gracie's former boyfriend, when last contacted through his MySpace site, had one "friend" - from an interactive adult porn site. "Some things never change," she says.

Rebecca's fiance, having acknowledged his problem, has remained "abstinent" for months and life is "absolutely fantastic", she says.

It may not be strictly addictive but for a silent minority, internet pornography has brought anguish, shame and broken hearts.

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