'Robotic' mother Gwyneth Paltrow
(Agencies)
2010-04-09 13:03
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Gwyneth Paltrow had "no maternal feelings" for her son Moses when he was born.
The 'Iron Man 2' actress admits she felt like a "robot" in the weeks after giving birth to her youngest child - who turned four today (08.04.10) - but refused to admit there was a problem until her husband, Coldplay singer Chris Martin, asked her about it.
She said: "At my lowest, I was a robot. I just didn't feel anything. I had no maternal feelings for him - it was awful.
"I had no thoughts of harming him, thank God, but I couldn't connect, and still, when I look pictures of him at three months old, I don't remember that time.
"My problem was that I never acknowledged anything was wrong. I just carried on as normal, and I just felt crazy. It was Chris, actually, who said out loud that something was wrong. And that was such a relief when he did because it was confirmation that it wasn't just me."
The 37-year-old beauty, who also has five-year-old daughter Apple with Chris, claims once he had broken the ice she began to consider her return to work after a break from Hollywood.
She told Britain's Vogue magazine: "That was the beginning. That was when I cracked it - I started exercising and I started thinking about working again.
"That's my problem, though. Sometimes I have a hard time saying what I need to say. I'll be annoyed. I'll stew. I'll build a wall around me and give off the silent treatment - and I know that's not healthy."